do you know that i love you? because i do. honestly, i do; more then you'll ever know. you're my daughter, my beloved. you HAVE been blessed. you HAVE a destiny: your calling; My call.
keep loving. keep fighting.i've given you desires. not to drive you crazy, but to draw you to me
i think i forget how much i NEED my Creator. How much He actually means to me. how much i actually love Him. how much He actually loves Me.
life's just become the "dara show" lately. and thats okay, but it's not how it should be. God hasn't slapped me yet. but i'm realizing how big of a fool i've been.like, i try to say all this stuff to sound like God's the centre of everything i do. don't get me wrong, i don't go around telling lies about what God is showing me, because He really is showing me so much. but how much more could He show me if i actually surrendered EVERYTHING to Him? not just my love life. because- i think my "love life" or whatever, is so complex...God has made it such a part of me.... that in order to fully give it to him, i have to really give him everything. ...not just some small portion of my heart.
but, thats just the beginning.
that one republic song with the line " i need you like a heart needs a beat, but thats nothing new"
WOW! i imagine they are talking about some lover or something. but then, am i not talking about the very same thing?i think. i just am coming to terms with how much i need God in my life. my entire life.
i'm sure most people figure this out when they're like 7, but maybe they don't really get it. maybe you don't really get it. how great this love really is. how these desires and needs and pains that we have are there for a reason. and maybe that reason is to draw us closer to the only one who can fully fulfill those desires or needs or pains.
maybe i'm just crazy
this is from john mark mcmillan.
i think i dig it.
Water and dust
A disaster a face and a name
Who am I kidding
With out you I'm nothing at all
You catch when I fall
You return all my calls
And your never not around
When I need you
And I always do
On my own
I m more than just alone
I'm colder than religion
I'm colder than stone
With out you I'm
Another waist of time
Like words that only rhyme
But aren't making any sense
Can I get next to you now
Can I lean on your perfection
Can lean on you now
Can I get next to you now
I cant breath with out you any more
With out you I'm left
With just rocks in my chest
Aches and pains that will not recess
The worst is
With out you I've got nothing left to say
You sweeten my days with that light amber haze
And you never could get away
When I need you
And I always need you
Can I get next to you now
Can I lean on your perfection
Can lean on you now
Can I get next to you now
I cant breath with out you any more
......plus. i'm super excited to fall in love.
and to have these feeling about a person.
not that i want my need for my Father to ever leave.
but i'm just so stoked; i can't even explain it
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