you can't change what you don't confront.

we can't overcomes our insecurities because we miss the point.
i'm supposed to die to Christ. daily.
dead people don't care if people think they look ugly.
dead people just don't care.
i should be so consumed with loving that i don't have time to be concerned with myself.
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it's touchy. because i'm not so sure that i can love people more and suddenyl start loving myself at the same time.
but i honestly believe the less i'm concerned with myself, the less it'll matter.
just not to the point where i lessen my value....we don't need more idiots making me feel loved, now do we...

memory lane dayz!

exactly a year ago..when i was in Aus, i was OBSESSED with this song. Yay members of westlife making it on their own!!

movie time!

ALICE IN WONDERLANDDDD!!!!!

THE TIME TRAVELLER'S WIFE!!

andddd fame

oh my goodnessssss. i am so so excited!

you're My first choice

I've picked you i haven't dropped you.

 don't panic, i'm with you.

there is no need to fear for I am your God.

i, your God have a firm grip on you and i'm not letting go, i'm telling you "don't panic, i'm right here to help you"

do you get it? God's got it.

again and again he has to remind me.

it's just as beautiful everytime i realize it though.

i'm His beloved.

oh my goodness. HIS BELOVED. 

it's actually half psychotic. i mean really, who am i? like i'm little Dara, and God's got me. he actually cares.

 you are my refuge.

 in my weakness you are strong, i find my strength in you. 

and you will come, and you will heal us,

 and our wounds will sting no more.

you'll revive us

you'll restore

even in my weakness you are my sovereign king

even in my weakness, i am stronger than anything

if i don't love, i've gotten nowhere.

If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing.
So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

Love never dies.  

We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.

But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love

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this is the greatest thing God has ever tried to teach me. i haven't quite grasped it all yet, maybe i never will. but it's Big. this whole love thing; it changes lives.

this is where my tattoo is coming from. thats all i'm sharing until the time when i literally share it..(like show it to people physically!)

la-de-flipping-da

don't you wish there was a delete button in our brain?

i mean honestly, there are moments, days, happenings, PEOPLE that i'd just love to forget about.

i realized i can delete someone from my phone. my facebook. my current life; but i can't delete their memory. almost like the memory of the idiot will live on forever in my mind.

it sucks bad beans

no matter what i try to convince myself, or others; it's there. his face, his words, his stupid stupid controlling nature.

i know for a fact i'm not the only one who is suffering with this.

sometimes i just wish God would take a magic marker and white it all out! just to give me peace, and to let me move on.

it's not even like i had an emotional attachment. well, i obviously did. i was WAY more involved than i ever would have admitted to being....more involved than i'll ever realize i think.

but i'd like to be finished with it. once and for all. i've said i'm done about 6 times. i never really am. (hopefully this time i am)

some people will say i have to live with this memory until someone new comes along to make me forget. but i don't want someone new. not right now, and i sure don't want someone new just so i can forget. i want to be strong enough to do this on my own. i'm daily growing into the woman that God has destined for me to be. and i don't want some idiot getting in the way of that

thats all

Well if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
And see the beauty in ugly 

we do what we need to be free

did i say that i loathe you? 

did i say that i want to leave it all behind?

fuck you and all we've been through

i can't take my mind off you....

then go

I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But a lonelily landed my waltz in her hands
In a way I felt you were leaving me
I was sure I wouldn't find you at home
And you let me down
Could have knocked off the evening
But you lonelily let him push under your bone
You let me down
It's no use deceiving
Neither of us wanna be alone
You're coming home 
I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I was lonelily looking for someone to hold
In a way I lost all I believed in
And I never found myself so low
And you let me down
You could've called if you'd needed
But you lonelily got yourself locked instead
And you let me down
It's one thing being cheated
But you took him all the way through your bed
And now you're coming home
And I'm trying to forgive
You're coming home
And I'm trying to forget
You're coming
And I'm trying to move on
You're coming home
And you haven't called yet
You're coming home
I gave me away
I could have knocked off the evening
But I lonelily loomed her into my bone
You let me down
There's no use deceiving
Neither of us wanna be alone

this don't even feel like falling

ho hum
i don't have much to say, really.
i think the enemy tries to make us feel weaker than we actually are. obviously, this is something we learn pretty much fresh out of the womb, but i think we forget. we think things just happen, not relating them to spiritual battles going on for our lives

little miss obsessive

If you ever get a chance, listen to Damien Rice.

and i mean REALLY listen.

i'm fairly certain, if you're in my life, i've forced you to listen to a song or  two. but i can't force you to pay attention and to have you life bettered by it.

well, i couldn't until now.

i am forcing everyone to listen, to soak up every single lyric and note, and to have your life changed. 

these are just a few of my favouries, i'm putting up live versions for a few of them, simply because live is flipping fantastic. when i heard this version of "rootless Tree" for the first time, i actually cried. i'm sure it's because i was an emotional wreck, but my God, so good

show me your friends; i'll show you your future

A man who has friends must himself be friendly,
But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother

think about it.
the greatest parters will be there even when we're not "friendly." when we're at our worst, down in the dumps, horrid, or whatever.

all i do is listen to music.
and then post it
i'm sorry, but this is how i'm dealing with emotions right now.

you're all i need

bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain." And God granted his request.

again, i'm learning

sometimes it's best to give things up entirely 

really, really, really

realizing how insignificant i really am.

yet, at the same time realize how significant i am.

but anyways....

guess what? God has a better plan

Favor interrupts stuff. it doesn't always fit into our current plans.
you have favor.

 if you didn't have favor, you wouldn't be alive.
plain and simple.
grace got us here.
It's carried us this far, and it wont let us down now.

obviously my favourites

remember the glory of willy?

marry a man with a plan

this isn't for who you think

What I want from you is empty your head
They say be true, don't stay in your bed
We do what we need to be free
And it leans on me like a rootless tree

What I want from us is empty our minds
We fake the thoughts, and fracture the times
We go blind when we've needed to see
And this leans on me, like a rootless...

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, 
There's nothing in you
And did you hate me, hate me so good
That you just let me out,
Of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out
Hell when you're around
Let me out

What I want from this
Is learn to let go
No not of you
Of all that's been told
Killers re-invent and believe
And this leans on me, like a rootless...

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it
There's nothing in you
And did you hate me, hate me so good
That you just let me out, let me out, let me out
Of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out
Of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out, let me out

Cyndi, you change lives

alsoooo, check it..

florence and the machine - Rabbit heart
florence and the machine- Kiss with a fist

repeat/repeat//please.repeat