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don't you wish there was a delete button in our brain?

i mean honestly, there are moments, days, happenings, PEOPLE that i'd just love to forget about.

i realized i can delete someone from my phone. my facebook. my current life; but i can't delete their memory. almost like the memory of the idiot will live on forever in my mind.

it sucks bad beans

no matter what i try to convince myself, or others; it's there. his face, his words, his stupid stupid controlling nature.

i know for a fact i'm not the only one who is suffering with this.

sometimes i just wish God would take a magic marker and white it all out! just to give me peace, and to let me move on.

it's not even like i had an emotional attachment. well, i obviously did. i was WAY more involved than i ever would have admitted to being....more involved than i'll ever realize i think.

but i'd like to be finished with it. once and for all. i've said i'm done about 6 times. i never really am. (hopefully this time i am)

some people will say i have to live with this memory until someone new comes along to make me forget. but i don't want someone new. not right now, and i sure don't want someone new just so i can forget. i want to be strong enough to do this on my own. i'm daily growing into the woman that God has destined for me to be. and i don't want some idiot getting in the way of that

thats all