i don't have time to maintain these regrets when i think of the way You love me.

find a man with a plan. (AGAIN)

i was just snooping. i didn't intend to. i was looking for a pen.
but anyways. i found a little letter that my dad had written my mom. i'm not sure when it was from, but it was just before he left for a business trip.
he was talking about how much he hated having to leave her. and how his real desire was to be at home more, and to not have to travel.
he went on to talk about how he knew how difficult it was for her. but he prayed she would find strength and joy in his absence.
then he went on talking about how much of a blessing she is, and how he is glad they are best friends.

it actually made me cry. i forgot for a second that it was my parents (sickkkkk) but just to know that love is so real.
my dad is such a good man. my mom always tells me that she prays i'll find a "keeper" like my father.
they are out there. the good guys are out there!

what a relief!

my dad says when you know, you know

but it didn't take me long to see that you mean more than anything.

Cause I don’t know how to say it, don’t know how you’ll take it
Don’t know how to fall in love
But I want to learn with you


Cause you mean more than anything

I never thought I’d drop my guard
Then you broke into my clumsy hear

times are a'changin

maybe "growing up Christian" makes you "miss out" on certain things?
girl come in to my work at the age of fourteen to write their learners. they wear loadssss of make-up, short skirts,and lots and lots of perfume. they have major attitude and they talk about sex.
i didn't even know what sex was when i was fourteen.

sure.sure. they aren't all like this. some are sweet and innocent (like i was) but i mean really.so young.
they all party by the time they are fifteen. it just blows my mind.
it's sad really.
but thats just the world.
and thats just a thought.

i'm listening to josh wilson right now.
you can listen too



i saw highschool musical summer something last night.
it was a bunch of old people dancing around to all the highschool musical songs, and i LOVED every second of it.
thats really all i'm saying for now.

i'm almost twenty.
that'll be some big post about how i'm getting old yet feeling young, yet feeling old and looking young, but starting to look old, and wanting a boyfriend, but having absolutely no interest in having a boyfriend blah blah blah blah blah

my life was just changed

okay.

this is only part one. seriously. watch the entire thing. maybe it's all crazy. maybe God does things. (obviously He does.)

just have an open heart i suppose, please.

from where i stand my only chance is You

oh.

kanye west is a douche

Jack! I'm flying!

i like what i know.

not that i'm afraid of change or anything. but i'm happy when i'm content. when i know i'll be happy...if that makes sense. if i'm at a video store and i have to choose a movie. generally, i'll pick one that i've seen and love compared to one that i've never heard of and can't be guaranteed i'll enjoy.

does this make me crazy? probably not. 

afraid of risks? i don't really think so.

september is my favourite month.

i love fall. sweater weather, DUH.

and t.v! i'm a freak, i know. but i'm a sucker for a goo hour long t.v. show.

GLEE is quite possibly my new favourite show. and the vampire diaries...yum yum i enjoyed the first episode.

one tree hill is back in two weeks with a new season (PRAISE THE LORD. i cried at last years finale because i thought the show was done...i've  followed it religiously since the beginning, how sad is that)

tonight the last episode of true blood season two is on. DARN. i have to wait until next summer to watch more BILL compton beauty!

okay. it's sad how i am sitting here talking abour t.v. on a lovely sunday afternoon (i'm actually waiting for the latest episode of weeds to load...haha)

things like this make me cry

Don't be afraid I've redeemed you.

I've called your name; you're mine

when you're in over your head, I'll be there with you

when you're between a rock and a hard place, it wont be a dead end

because I am God, your personal God

the Holy of Israel, your Saviour

I paid a huge price for you

thats how much you mean to me!

thats how much I love you

so don't be afraid, I'm with you

all you did was save my life

Dancing at discos
Eating cheese on toast
Yeah you make me merry make me very very happy
But you obviously, you didn't want to stick around

So I learnt form you

I can be alone, yeah
I can watch a sunset on my own
I can be alone, yeah
I can watch a sunset on my own
I can be alone
I can watch a sunset on my own

Chatting on the phone
Can't take back those hours
But I won't regret
'Cause you can grow flowers
From where dirt used to be

///

it's no big deal

Have I not brought you this far?
Will I not complete the job?
Take a look at the steps behind you
That alone shows I'm a faithful God