enjoy

MAN BABIES is my new favourite thing. seeing the babies look so big and the tiny men makes me laugh a lot.

Fear: and unpleasant emotion aroused by impending danger

There is no such thing as danger.

look at your creator. look what He can do, what He already has done.

God's got it. always

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.
Well-formed love banishes fear. Since fear is crippling, a fearful life—fear of death, fear of judgment—is one not yet fully formed in love
Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love

THIS IS BLOWING MY MIND!

EVERYBODY! ROCK YOUR BODY!

BACKSTREETS BACK ALRIGHT!

dirty little secret. i've been listening to my "backstreet boys greatest hits: Chapter 1" and it's changing my life. it has always good. i'm beginning to realize it will ALWAYS be good.

"i don't care who you are, where you're from, what you did. as long as you love me"

"tell me why i can't be there where you are. there's something missing in my heart!"

"quit playing games with my heart"

OHHHH MY GOSH! ALL I HAVE TO GIVE STILL MAKES ME CRY! haha....."my love is all i have to give. without you i don't think i could live. i wish i could give the world to you; but love is all i have to give"

we haven't even gotten into shape of my heart or drowning yet.

basically. i'm a geek. but i don't even care. these songs shaped a portion of my childhood. (i know the EXACT outfit i was wearing when black and blue came out)

SO GET DOWN GET DOWN AND MOVE IT AL AROUND!

this video creeps the crap out of me. but my fellow trueblood fans will appreciate the male in the video.

Your Glory shines before our eyes.

King of wonders, we stand amazed,
There’s no other, other than you.
King of wonders, you know the way to our hearts and
The more we see the more we love you.

this was from Brittney. May 7,2003 haha.

Dara

While she doubts that anyone likes her,
someone always has that eye on her!
She likes befriending
boyz that are bending(hehe).
******* for one is the one that she does not shun.
So when you see Dara walking down the street,
you'll always know someone close by that she would like to meet.

i know some people have issues with LIVE versions of songs.
i love them.
especially this one.

it's one of my favourite songs at the moment, it's just great.

Dear Family, Friends and Business Colleagues:

First, I have never been one to send out an email to such a large group of people. In fact I had to ask someone how to accomplish this.

The world changed last week for those in Haiti……I will come back to this later.

5 years ago I made my first trip to an orphanage (Haiti Children’s Home) in Haiti. What I saw during that trip was something I never could have imagined. After meeting the children and the caregivers, I wanted to find a small way to make a difference when I came back home. Shortly thereafter, a small group of us assembled at a Tim Horton’s in Ponoka, Alberta, Canada and one week later we became “Haitian Children’s Aid Society”. Our purpose was simple: find ways to get food, medical supplies and money to this orphanage so that children can stay alive in a home environment while adoptive families could be found for them.

Since that time, 80 adoptive families have received a happy child from Haiti Children’s Home. Currently, of the 45 children now at the orphanage, 6 are in the final stages of adoption and near ready to come to a home in Canada.

The quake on January 12th did not severely damage the orphanage building and all the children and staff were safe. The location of the orphanage is 50 KMS from Port-Au-Prince. However, the orphanage which also had an attached medical clinic quickly became a treatment center for local people and those coming from Port-Au-Prince seeking help and safety.

Today, January 20th, the orphanage building did not survive an aftershock. All staff and children are safe, but are now outdoors with nowhere to go. No power. We have located some partner friends in Dominican Republic who are scrambling to get food and milk to the children. I have included a recent communication below from our Director at the orphanage:

“The orphanage has been declared unfit to live in by the United Nations after today’s quake. We are trying to get ALL the kids out to the States on a Humanitarian visa for right now. They are sleeping in the yard again and cannot enter the house. I am going to the US Embassy tomorrow and likely will stand in line for hours but I need to find our options. The UN will bring us milk and water and hopefully tarps and tents for tonight. I am trying to get the Embassy pictures of the kids with Lori's help so that I have ID photos to take tomorrow. There is no power in town .....”

Many of you have likely given already to Haiti relief -- there are so many worthy causes. If you feel so inclined to help the 45 children at Haiti Children’s Home I can attest that 100% of the money will find its way to helping them directly. We have some trusted partners in Canada and the USA that will take donations, offer charitable receipts and dedicate all funds to helping the children in the orphanage.

In Canada:
Champion City Church
7531-152 C Ave.
Edmonton, Alberta, Canada
T5C 3L2
Please make your cheque out to "Champion City Church", write in the cheque memo "Haiti Relief" and include your full name and address.

In USA:
Interfellowship Christian Ministries
c/o Alana Butts
417 Webb Ct.
Minden, LA 71055
U.S.A
Please make your cheque out to "Interfellowship Christian Ministries", write in the cheque memo "Haiti Relief" and include your full name and address.

If no charitable tax receipt is required please send your donation to:
Haitian Children's Aid Society
C/O Duane Albers
RR # 2
Wetaskiwin, AB T9A 1W9

Thank you for your help and consideration. If you have any questions I would be pleased to take your call at 403.350.3420. A website is included below for further information, and to learn more about this important role that the orphanage plays in the lives of many children.

Best Regards,
Doug Decksheimer
http://www.haitichildrenshome.com/index.php

hope for haiti now

remember this?

focus focus focus (and i'm not talking about the car)

the bright eyed choke on ambition

in focusing on myself; in looking on my own hardship, my own struggles and pains: i miss the world. i can't see what's going on around me. i'm important.

i take my problems, and make them the only problems. my life sucks. my world is screwed up. me,my,mine.

when i focus on God. when i look to Him, and take the focus off my own life even if it's for a second i realize i'm not the world.(duh) there is a lot out there other than me. i can "suffer" but i can't have pity on myself. my life isn't worst. my problems aren't biggest. (even if they appear to be)

looking to me makes my world seem a lot more "important" than it actually is.

i'm important, but it's not all about me. get it?

i can learn to be humble

amen.

be.

Be still and know that I am God.

be love.be life. be free. be freedom. be unforgettable. be joy. be content. heck, be you. be strength. be courage. be encouraged

You're trying so hard to behave but I'm not going to let you until you learn how to Be.
I'm not going to let you even behave right until you learn to Be.

i am my BEloved's.

just be, okay?

TAKE YOUR FEAR AND THROW IT ALL AWAY.

YOU ARE STRONGER THAN THAT.

Your sword’s grown old and rusty
Burnt beneath the rising sun
It’s locked up like a trophy
Forgetting all the things it’s done

And though it’s been a long time
You’re right back where you started from
I see it in your eyes
That now you’re giving up the gun

But if the chance remained
To see those better days
I’d cut the cannons down

My ears are blown to bits
From all the rifle hits
But I still crave that sound

You felt the coming wave
Told me we’d all be brave
You said you wouldn’t flinch

But in the years that passed
Since I saw you last
You haven’t moved an inch

I see you shine in your way
Go on, go on, go on

the battle with the heart isn't easily won (but it CAN be won)

OH MY GOSH. I WAS IN HEAVEN

video killed the bloggggio star

good good good

SHUT UP AND LET ME GO!

because we can

today i met a lady who is involved in "spiritual healing" i was really intrigued by what that meant.because i wasn't entirely sure. so i asked. and we got into rather good conversation. i think i'm becoming some sort of naturalistic hippie or something. i mean. i was talking about "putting good energy out into the universe to get good parking spots" at christmas time.

now. i realize it may not be my manifesting of good into the universe that gets me good parking (basically karma) but i believe "energy" as they call it plays a huge factor in life. she got kinda crazy going on about calling the spirit guides and angels to help bring out bad energy...haha. but there was some good!

she was talking about how we all have our energy; our aura, which is either negative or positive. someone with a negative energy is hard to be around. their aura is bad. those with a good energy, or a bright aura are easy to be around and to stand. now, while i'm not really into reading peoples energies, and associating everything with that. i agree with the concept. if you are negative, if you have a cynical outlook on life, you are not as enjoyable. if you're having a bad day, going through something stressful blah,blah,blah you are not a joy to spend time with. where as, on good days. those taken on with positive attitude and smiles and sunshine, we are so much more easy to be around.

good energy/bad energy.

i'm not applauding the universe for getting me a good parking spot. but the thing is, had i not taken time to think "hey, lets think good things so maybe i'll get good parking" then i never would have noticed the good parking. i would have taken it for granted type thing.

maybe God gave me the parking?

maybe it's a parking spot and i'm looking way too far into this?

i'm done with negative.

thats it.

why would i live my life that way? i can be a downer. big time. but why? what's the point? life is far far far too short for that. i have eternity to bag on people and get pissed off about things.

the problem though with this new attitude, is i need to find time to eliminate things that bring me down. which isn't going to be easy. i know there are people and things in my life that don't need to be there. it's not like elimination time, but it's Dara time. i can't take all my time and effort and energy and pour it into things that won't give back.

this isn't a selfish thing. i realize what i am saying sounds really really selfish. but i can only take so much. i'll still love. i will love and i will love. but i can take my time and put it into places where i can see it grow. beating a dead horse type things!

it's not like a "i'm going to stop loving you, because you don't love me back..so i'm instead going to love someone who will love me"

but at the same time that is sort of it. just not that.

more like. my life is going here. yours is going there. either hop on and make an effort, or be careful because we might fade.

if i get let down, i get negative. i feel either bad about myself, or about that person, or that thing. why continue to be let down when i can move on and get on with life?

it's so simple!!

it's not just "being positive" that i'm aiming for. i want to be pure. to be humbled. to live right. not just a "lets live right in GOD'S EYESSSSS" LETS JUST LIVE RIGHT. lets do our part in the world. pray for Haiti. get informed about issues in the city, in the world. take time out of your busy schedule to think of someone other than yourself. (thats probably the hardest for me) lets love. take time for people. live the way we are called to. try to make a difference obviously, be positive! live right in God's eyes. but don't do it because you feel you HAVE to. because you're "commanded" to. do it because it's right. lets do it with a heart of a lion!

this can't be where everyone is in their life. but this is where i am. and i am soaking it all up. i'm just loving it. i haven't nearly sorted it all out. and i doubt i ever will. i'm not telling you how to live you life. i'm telling you how i want to live mine. that is it.

Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
God knows, all right—
knows your stupidity,
sees your shallowness
You're blessed when you get your inside world—your mind and heart—put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.
A good reputation is better than a fat bank account. Your death date tells more than your birth date.

He who walks with the wise grows wise,
but a companion of fools suffers harm.

not for the faint of heart

i imagine some can't understand my OBSESSION with kid cudi.
sure.sure. if you look up what he's done....it may seem a bit sketch. but honestly....i ADORE his music.
i doubt you've taken the time to listen to anything other than day 'n' night (YES. this is the wonder who sings that!) anyways. this is just one of his good songs. there are more. but this one is really really good. just listen.
take it to heart. he deserves the spot of my profile picture if you ask me!

yes. we DO get on

this used to be "my song" i knew it. and those close to me knew it.
but why? what the heck has happened to me that would make this become my song? i planned to bump into a crush? sure.sure.sure. i did "things" and i think i might "get on" with someone. and i could never tell that to his face. but why does that make this my song?
why is MY song the one that ends with the crush kissing another girl?
sure if this happened i would lock myself in the toilet and cry the entire my night. but this HASN'T HAPPENED.

honestly. we need more faith.
what is with having songs? i have about a million of them. and hardly any of them are good. it's all "i loooove you, but you don't even know who i am" three doors down has a song thats like "you love me, but you don't know who i am" i used to change the lyrics and sob "you don't love me because you know who i am" i wish i was kidding. because thats just horrible. but it's true. this is different than not having self respect..well maybe it's rather similar..but it's an issue that has to stop.
we are worth so so much more than stupid lyrics.
"OHHHHH My GOSH! THIS IS MY SONG!!!" as white horse plays....i'm not you're princess..sob sob....it's too late for your white horse...sob sob...GET OVER IT. it's not too late. you are a princess. some guy didn't cheat..lie...whatever...you're just emotionally unstable. (thats a note to myself. maybe someone can relate to that song..haha..sorry if thats the case) but really. if that is the case. you need to pick better men. no offence, but you're not doing a very good job at guarding your heart and your soul and yourself. because you need to be careful. you are far far too valuable to waste yourself on just anyone. and i'm not just speaking of sex.
anyways. this isn't really going anywhere.
basically. i love love love music. all sorts. and i'm sick of it bringing me down. i hate thinking that i relate to something when i really really don't. i can't sing those sad songs and take them on as my own. i just can't, because it's not truth.i can sing them. but i need to realize it's not me. i'm not useless and single and dumped! i may think i am. but i'm not
maybe i'd like to think that i'm i love with someone, but he doesn't even know my first name. or it could be fun not get the memo and only see stiletto's but thats just not truth.

ROMEO SAVE ME.
this. i can sing. and it shall not bring me down!

WELL. WE ALL HAVE SOMEONE WE CAN SING THIS SONG TO.

This is what makes my head spin

You're forever Holy

God of all creation

Pour Your life into me

This is so overwhelming

You're forever Holy

it's not even 11 and i'm so ready for bed. this is amazing.

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be this. yet at the same time; don't.

We can either let our surroundings and circumstances affect us, or we can affect our circumstances and surrounding.

really. i talk about being content lots. like taking what God's giving, and not always searching for the next happiness. but soaking in the moment.
but really. being uncontent it okay too. in the way that we really should never be satisfied until we meet Him.
so. i'm content with where i am. yet i will NEVER be completely satisfied until my soul is with the one it belongs to.

but really.be satisfied.
yet don't be.

i honestly wish i could make more sense right now. but i'm just so so exhausted, i can't even say what i'm trying to say.

live you life with happiness. do what you need to do to be happy. find satisfaction with life.be content.
but don't forget the bigger picture. right? remember there is so so much more to look forward to than just being satisfied in this life.

HAHA i found my new addiction

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i lied. i still listen to Chris Brown

p.s. sometimes when i say "Music is my boyfriend" i pretend "music" is" jensen ackles".....

this is a lot of "i" and "me." get over it.

in my dream world....brushing my teeth wouldn't make me gag. i wouldn't have to wash my hair. in the morning, i would just make it how i want it. veronica mars would continue on after season three. i would be the star of a kid cudi music video. damien rice, florence walsh, allison sudol, joshua radin, Torquil Campbel, emily haines and chris martin would write and sing with each other. and not just once. they would be friends, and often make music for me to listen to. only me. if someone else wanted to hear it, they would have to ask for my permission. i would never have to sleep. just unending awakeness. vampires would be real. they would be sexy, and they would not be terrifying. plane rides would be instant-with good food. sharks wouldn't exist-so i could experience water.SCREW DRINKING WATER. iced tea would be in "iced tea fountain." activia would be the only yogurt. Christian Audigier would never come up with the horror that is ed hardy."almost lover" would play at all dramatic boy moments of my life. (which i suppose it does in my head anyways) my job wouldn't stress me out. Mario bros would have come out a LONG time ago for the wii. my car would be a hatchback, my dog a puggle. miley cyrus would be single forever. mark walhberg would not be married. he can be happy, just not married. the ting tings would follow me around and play killer beats all the time. arrested development would have a new episode every day.

of course, there would be much much more. but i will stop.
i'm just showing how different we are. like, we are all human, but we are all so so so different. what i like. what inspires me and gives me hope and life; probably is hell to someone else. someone, somewhere, might look at my dream world and die right there. in front of their PC, in their ford. under their ed hardy snuggie......(which in my dream world would happen, ironically enough....)

thee best

WE ARE NEVER THE SAME AFTER WE ENCOUNTER THE LOVE OF GOD

or the love of anyone for that matter.

2009 was the year:

i started wearing my bangs back.

i stopped wearing make up.

i realized I mattered.

happiness mattered.

i started the long journey of having hair longer than miley cyrus. (i'm well on my way)

i blogged!!

i downloaded 6 different versions of "how he loves"

i started listening to arcade fire, the clash, MGMT, bon iver and kid cudi.

i stopped listening to chris brown. (he can not transform me.)

honey was best served with refresh tea.

i read christy miller for the fifth time.

i stopped reading cosmo.

i didn't take many photos.

i did make lots of memories.

i made new friends.

i lost old friends.

i cut an asshole out of my life cold turkey.

i only made contact with the asshole one time after cutting it out.

the farthest place i travelled was ontario. how disgusting is that?

i got over a never-ending crush.

i eventually went back to the never ending crush. (to be fair, my eyes were opened, and i was human)

kanye west became a douche.

justin beiber became the cutest thing alive. (aside from the PUGGLE PUPPY i really want)

i had my heart crushed.

i realized three days after having my heart crush that it indeed was not crushed.

i rode on a boys motorcycle other than my dads. ohlala

i learned to watch my words.

i got an iphone. (all that money i saved from not buying makeup)

i wore heels all the time.

i realized how stupid i am when i mixed up north and south on a map.

a lot more happened this year (obviously.) but these are what had an impact on me....or these are what i can think of at this exact time.) it was good. really good. and the next year will be good too. i'm going to do lots. and it'll be neat.

cheers.