because we can

today i met a lady who is involved in "spiritual healing" i was really intrigued by what that meant.because i wasn't entirely sure. so i asked. and we got into rather good conversation. i think i'm becoming some sort of naturalistic hippie or something. i mean. i was talking about "putting good energy out into the universe to get good parking spots" at christmas time.

now. i realize it may not be my manifesting of good into the universe that gets me good parking (basically karma) but i believe "energy" as they call it plays a huge factor in life. she got kinda crazy going on about calling the spirit guides and angels to help bring out bad energy...haha. but there was some good!

she was talking about how we all have our energy; our aura, which is either negative or positive. someone with a negative energy is hard to be around. their aura is bad. those with a good energy, or a bright aura are easy to be around and to stand. now, while i'm not really into reading peoples energies, and associating everything with that. i agree with the concept. if you are negative, if you have a cynical outlook on life, you are not as enjoyable. if you're having a bad day, going through something stressful blah,blah,blah you are not a joy to spend time with. where as, on good days. those taken on with positive attitude and smiles and sunshine, we are so much more easy to be around.

good energy/bad energy.

i'm not applauding the universe for getting me a good parking spot. but the thing is, had i not taken time to think "hey, lets think good things so maybe i'll get good parking" then i never would have noticed the good parking. i would have taken it for granted type thing.

maybe God gave me the parking?

maybe it's a parking spot and i'm looking way too far into this?

i'm done with negative.

thats it.

why would i live my life that way? i can be a downer. big time. but why? what's the point? life is far far far too short for that. i have eternity to bag on people and get pissed off about things.

the problem though with this new attitude, is i need to find time to eliminate things that bring me down. which isn't going to be easy. i know there are people and things in my life that don't need to be there. it's not like elimination time, but it's Dara time. i can't take all my time and effort and energy and pour it into things that won't give back.

this isn't a selfish thing. i realize what i am saying sounds really really selfish. but i can only take so much. i'll still love. i will love and i will love. but i can take my time and put it into places where i can see it grow. beating a dead horse type things!

it's not like a "i'm going to stop loving you, because you don't love me back..so i'm instead going to love someone who will love me"

but at the same time that is sort of it. just not that.

more like. my life is going here. yours is going there. either hop on and make an effort, or be careful because we might fade.

if i get let down, i get negative. i feel either bad about myself, or about that person, or that thing. why continue to be let down when i can move on and get on with life?

it's so simple!!

it's not just "being positive" that i'm aiming for. i want to be pure. to be humbled. to live right. not just a "lets live right in GOD'S EYESSSSS" LETS JUST LIVE RIGHT. lets do our part in the world. pray for Haiti. get informed about issues in the city, in the world. take time out of your busy schedule to think of someone other than yourself. (thats probably the hardest for me) lets love. take time for people. live the way we are called to. try to make a difference obviously, be positive! live right in God's eyes. but don't do it because you feel you HAVE to. because you're "commanded" to. do it because it's right. lets do it with a heart of a lion!

this can't be where everyone is in their life. but this is where i am. and i am soaking it all up. i'm just loving it. i haven't nearly sorted it all out. and i doubt i ever will. i'm not telling you how to live you life. i'm telling you how i want to live mine. that is it.

Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
God knows, all right—
knows your stupidity,
sees your shallowness
You're blessed when you get your inside world—your mind and heart—put right. Then you can see God in the outside world.
A good reputation is better than a fat bank account. Your death date tells more than your birth date.

He who walks with the wise grows wise,
but a companion of fools suffers harm.